My body’s cold,
lips are blue.
Why did I do this because of you?
I feel the earth below me
like a pillow under my head.
No knives, no guns, but pills instead.
The bottle lays empty,
cap unscrewed.
What did I do? What did I do?
My spirit floats, my body lays.
My lover finds me,
and he prays.
I reach for him.
I’m sucked away,
like a deep crest of a wave.
He pounds the ground,
screaming why, oh why?
I asked myself why did I?
My parents arrive, my best friend too
I thought to myself, what did I do!?
I look away, the pain’s too deep.
My life is over because of me.
I look back for one last glance.
They zip me up in the body bag.
I did this to ease my pain.
I lost instead of gained.
As I look down at my family,
I regret that night.
My life stopped ticking
because of a fight.
